reality and normality no longer exist

I'm pushing myself away from all emotions, sense of reason and all forces in this world.
I am longer taking in my surroundings, my mind has adapted to concentrating on the tasks ahead.
When i look up into the night sky on my travels home and i see the night sky and i see the stars and i see what seems to be one end and another horizon to horizon i am no longer seeing them as mysterious objects and i'm no longer intrigued into their purpose, history or how they function it's all just one big blur and when i come home and lay on my back looking around at the array of objects that surround me i no longer look into them and realise how many processes, people and thinking it takes to make each object and what their created out of and their purpose.

It's a saddening thought for my mind to only take in what it needs to do. I do so of my own choice and my own path i want to follow.
I'm careering down a path which requires alot of focus, skill and attention to detail. My social life slowly withering away down to the size of an atom where you'll see an old face walking down the street.
The pro so to speak is that this is where my passion lies and this is my enjoyment awaits.
In maybe 20-30 years i'll broaden my mind and be able to analyse the world again and give back to it and the people that walk upon it but for now this is my mind frame.

I loved it when you allowed me to let everything go and i felt safe with you and nothing could penetrate the walls that we were secured by. My reality and normality would return if those days would return. I still think about you.