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Chances and possibilities, in this new light i believe is my future should i?

I am the message

I will never give up on anything that still has the slimmest of chances.
My mind may bare doubts but penetrate deeper and you shall find that of an interesting characteristic i hold dear to me, where hope still breathes and flourishes.
Although on occasions it can become lost it still is in plain view.

It well may well be a struggle to raise you up but i will accomplish the task to the best of my abilities all with best intentions at hand (note this is not targeted at any paticular individual)
On occasions you will knock me back down and steer your emotions to face me, you let loose of everything that has ever had a negative impact on your wellbeing and career it straight down the road until you hit me head on.
Yes i will rise with cuts and bruises but next time will i achieve my goal or will time repeat?
It seems nothing i will do will suffice for you but why do i still try?





You drive my obsession to a faster pace but i'm unsure whether it is mutual.
Am i merely part of an array of reactions caused by let's say a billiard ball on break hurtling towards it's objective with the two colours represent that of good and bad opportunities but when you struck yourself down that path did you intend to come into contact with me?
With the force and might you did?


Following this unknown factor another appears it's an open table but which do you choose;

The easiest quick pot where you'll have instant comfort and success but the following part of the game may be disheartened about why you chose it originally.

Or maybe you'll ask that of a more expierienced friend in the field of play to help make that of a better decision for you but in the end they will probably wrongly determine how you play and the tactics you use.

Or you will give up feeling inadequate at this and return to your drink, friends and what you enjoy.

Maybe you will strike the one that most appeals to you after considerate thought but are looks everything?

You make sure your playing on the same table with the same cue and strike the same ball as the last time you won but did you really win last time? Are you willing to leave it all down to luck? Is the same ball a good choice again?

You read up on the possibilities laid out infront of you, you consider the rest of your options and take the best tactical advantage possible.

Finally you could sink the black straight in and lose with the chance you take others down with it, if you continue to play then every ball you strike will be in vain,
you have already lost
what could of been is now gone
no safety nets and no way back


This example can be controversal due to no matter what happens the game ends.

Unless perhaps you sneakily take that ball that appealed to you most and slip it into your pocket
to take home.

Just remember there's always a chance of a rematch until your funds decrease to nothing and you have nothing left to give that'll be the day when you truelly no your lost and alone.

Why do we force ourselves to play these games?
Because it's the norm?

A new year, a new chapter to be written

I've recently taken a huge interest into philosphy recently with aid from a spirited kindhearted young individual.
Although what i've read so far is far from an easy read every other sentence i take in seems to just click in my mind and i understand and comprehend it that it brings a smile to my face yet it creates a storm in my mind of interest and a certain layer or eariness forms. At the same time it's making life alot easier in a strange way just thinking about things from a different perspective such as that of cause and effect when it comes to argueing.

This next year should be a good one i'm climbing the ladder higher and higher with no assists and no safeguards my strengh alone has pushed me up this pitch tackling the barriers down finally reaching my goals step by step.

I'm here to make my mark on others peoples lives although catering is my profound love and it seems helping others is along the sidelines it's really not the case, i'm in love with teaching and creating ambitions.
I want to inspire those who are lost.
I want to raise the bar with those who are blind to their ambitions.
I want to mend the broken.
I want to aid the helpless.
And
I want to care for those wounded in the battles of life.